This weekend was ok.. except for firday. I got really drunk with shue. like over the top drunk then went to te game and flipped out. it wasnt nice. Went back to shues house and puked all over the place... sorry babe. it sucked so bad. i hated friday. saturday woke up really sick and tried to go to my game but that failed so i came home and just slept all day untill around 4. I ate suttin then went to shues house for the rest of the day and just kind of slept and what not. twas nice. i came home like around 10:15 and i chilled online i have no idea why but i jsut wasnt tired i guess. today im probably stuck in the house cause im a loser and i have no friends. i duno what im doing. im such a mean gilfriend man i cant beleive i flipped out like that at the game. i didnt mean anything i said though! im so sorry sweetie i love you so much! we're gonna be together forever i kno it. your too much to lose and i dont kno what i would do if i did lose you... bye

~shiry~

last night i didnt sleep at all because my throat hurt sooo bad and it felt like i was catchin a cold. i finally got to sleep like around 5:30 and i have to wake up at 6  so i was like fuck it im not going to school.  i woke up like 45 min ago and came online .. nobody's on lol.. this is so gay. athts why im writting in this thing. god!! i feel like im gonna throw up. this is sooo beat ...  ohwell at least i get to stay home and eta and sleep all day .... aight im gonna go take a nap.. laterrrrrr

it sux so bad when the person you love with ever nerve in your body every piece of your heart can just go and hurt your feelings so bad. i never ever thought anything like this would happen to us but it did and im suffering so much from it. i loved him more than anything in the world. sometimes when people would ask me questions i would just studder cause i could never ever possibly explain how i felt about him. Everytime i saw him or  hung out with him i felt like i was in a diffrent world and nothing could ever go wrong, like he was my hero and he would protect me from everything. i thought he was so strong and perfect in every possible way. no flaws at all. he was my heart my soul .. my everything and its all gone. he made me feel so good about myself and beautiful... like i was the prettiest gurl in the world and i was his princess. i felt like we were the only two people on the earth and nothing could ever ruin us.. i guess i was wrong. i thought you were actually the one guy who would never hurt me or choose any other gurl over me but i was so blind and in too deep to really realize what was going on. i would have been the best girlfriend to you and i would have been good to you for the rest of my lfe but i guess all that wasnt enough. it hurts soo bad to feel this way and i wish i didnt have feelings at all right now because i kno everytime i look at you and everytime im around you im gonna wanna kiss you the way i used to or hug you and laugh with you the way i used to. i loved how we used to laugh at stupid things all the time and how you used to tell me that you thought i was so funny even when i just acted stupid. you were the only one who ever understood me and i thought we were the exact same person, but we arent and we never will be. i loved you so much shue and now its all gone just because i wasnt good enough or what you wanted in a girl.. well im sorry i tried my best i really did :(

finally! i get a break off of school. its killng me alredy. i dont think ive ever been so tired in all my life. yo and it doesnt even matter if its the weekend anyway because i have a damn paper to write already..... that NUTZ! anyway last night i went to the movies with shue and we saw pirates f the carribean i liked it i gues but expected more. its all good johnny depp was in it! after the movies we called up my mom and told her to come pick us up while we waited we saw kelsey there with dave and the rest of the crew and than we saw some ND kids. some of my friends!! man i miss them so much and they looks so diffrent. i saw chris jared james and all them. it was great... i want to go back but i wanna take shue with me. he would be etter friends with them then the people he's friends wih now anyway. On another notemy history teacher has us writting a 2 page researc paper on like laws and shit... i dont even kno where to start man... it sux but im gonna do it today cause im trying to actually do good this year instead of fucking up maybe my parents will by me like a new car lol i doubt it. that would be awesome tho. god i want to drive so bad! it makes me want to cry sometimes when i think about it. no not really but driving is great. aight well i guess im gonna gostart on that boring paper.. feel free to interrupt me! later

~BIB
woah my dad just came and droped off some buffalo wins.. nice!!!

well yeah i started school like 2 days ago.. shows how much of a life i have, i dont even have time to write in this damn thing already. ahh it sux so bad i walked into schoolthinking that maybe this year wuld be haofl decent but its not. it seems worst cause my classes suck and i never get to see shue. like ever.. i see him for like 1 sec inthe morning and a half a min befor  get on the bus to go to school. i havnt even been able to talk to him these past 2 day safter i got home either. it sux. all ive been doin is homework and going online because i have no freakin li. this is beat... ohwell. i almost punched my english teacher in the face oday bcause he has us reading this crazy bullshit! its like in another languge. i jsut got done doing the homework that he gave us... 5 pages to read. not much bt it took me like 5 hours to do because its hard to understand. than it took me like another 5 hours to answer them damn questions. ok enough about the whole school thing... right now im jus chillin at the computer with cotton between my toes cause i jsut  got done painting them... they look cute.. there only clear tho.. man i soo tired i wish i could jsut fall leep right now but i kno i'll wake up later tonight and most likly i'll jsut lay there and stare at the ceiling. aight the notorious BIB is out. lol laterrrrrr

~ BIB~

im sooo pissed... i cant get online because AOL is telling me that i have to sign of with the master screen name to recieve an urgen message or sum stupid shit like that. the only problem is is that my brother is the master screen name and he in atlanta right now.. WTF ohh well i still have my wonderful boyfriend.. which means i can sign on his screen name and write in this thing. As of today around 7 o'clock i will be holding a party down the street at my friends house..hopefully it wil be fun, if is not ohwell at least its something to do. well my last friday before school starts was deffinitly ruined by soccer practice! my boyfriend wanted to take me out and stuff for like a wonderful evening but soccer practice fucked all that up and it ended up finishing early. what a waste of a day!! ohwell at least i'll get to see him tonight.

uhh refering (SP) back to my last entry i did get my school supplies but no clothes. because im poor. maybe i'll get them like this weekend or something. ohwell i have clothes i can where anyway.. its all good. Ok about this party.. i dont even care if people dont like it or come because the decorations are deffinitly kick ass and thats all im happy about lol. it looks like a beach scene man. its great! aight well i dont have much else to say. bye


~$HiRy~

<3 i love you shue :)

man its like 10:00 and my mom decided to wake me up to ask me where the rest of the freakin toilet paper is.. whats the deal with that?... now im tired as hell and cranky, but most likly i'll just go back to sleep after i write this lol.  anyway, hopefully today i'll go school shopping after i wake up cause i really need clothes for school.. oh yeah and  notebooks and such. so excited for that!!!!!!!!! Man i cant believe school is in like 5 days im really not ready and i didnt do any summer reading. thats not new though i neer do. its such a waste of time.. we're supposed to be on summer vacation why do we have to read books.. 3 books at that! its rediculous, and if they're gonna make us read why do we have to read the books that they choose why cant we pick whatever book we want to read??? ugh.. its so stupid. i bought one of the books though lol but i dont think im gonna finish it. its not that bad. ahh i need some sleep.... byee

~HÂshi®y~

hey!!! last night was cool. went over dave suts house and had loads of fun. me and becky walked over and saw david lamb and his bright red shirt in the middle of the road waiting for us. he's such a cool kid. out of the whole 16 years of my life i never thought i would be hangin out with dave sut. it was awesome tho. when we first got there we just kinda chilled on his floor talkin about stuff and making fun of his legos. hahha man your a genius for taking the time out to make those things lol. after the whole talking thing  was over we watched jay and silent bob and my wonderful boyfriend shue called and i told him to come over suts house. that made the night like 10080394820394 times better. :) so when he got there we finished watching jay and silent bob along with 2 huge pies of dominoes pizza!!! man i was so hungry. After we watched the movie and stuff we hung out there a lil and than becky had this bright idea to go get her guitar so we went and got that and we ended up just going back to suts and staying for like 20 more min. than we had to go cause becky's mom was coming home, which suked cause i didnt want to leave shue... especially after we took a little time out from everything and went outside and had a talk about stuff. i wanted to stay with him teh whole night man .. he's so amazing .. im so lucky! unfortunitly (SP) we did have to go but i called him as soon as i got to becky's house. man i was flippin out i wanted him to come back with us sooo bad lol. its all good though cause when we got changed and stuff into our sleep shit we went online and just goofed off. i dunno what was wrong with us but we were hyper as hell. this is all i gotta say.........

• "i come from a land down under!!!"
• "god he's gay"
• "shue i want it so bad"

bye~

 

 

starring jennifer lopez and also featuring becky deo and Hashiry bibb. wow this movie is so wild. i feel like crying. if anybody reads this and is in the mood for a good mvei go rent angel eyes, its great!

ok enough about the movie... today went well i guess me and becky have been chillin since like 6ish and ever since than stuffs been crazy hahaha. we've jsut been talking about a bunch of stuff. i mean its so great when you have a friened who can sit around with you and don absolutly nothing and still have a good time. its really cool. the only thing that sucked about today was the stuff that went down with me ad my boyfriend. i love him so much and it hurts soo bad when we fight. its the worst feelng in the world when your in a fight and you have to leave for some reason and you dont really feel like everything is resolved. it sux and i wish i could just always be happy and never get mad or sad about anything but we really are special because some o the stuff we've been through is crazy.

wow, its like 1:30 at night and me and becky are still wide awake and to top that off im chewing on some gum with pimple med. all over my face thats white and crusty that sounds so attractive... ahh i need sleep....... later !

wow.....  i fnally found a journal that i like. took me like 10 years but i got it